Most Random IM conversation:
Jen: i’m actually in a fantastic mood, if you were here right now you would probably take my temperature
John: lol
Jen: i’m happy, and that scares the shit out of me, but seriously, i’m happy
John: you’ll be ok

Laugh of the Month:
“Cupcake. Shot. Cupcake. Shot. Cupcake, cupcake. Shot. Cupcake. Shot, shot, shot.
Cupcake mush on the floor.
That’s how I foresee tonight’s events.”

Jenika’s predictions as we looked forward to Rock Star Party.  Excellent.

Best text messages received:
You might want to erase those
It might be a bill for my services lol
Your mom is thirsty
So I don’t think I can eat ham any more
Down here

Strangest text messages I sent:
Not really.  Who puts cinnamon in the pepper container?
Heck no.  You that hard up for food storage you do it.  When I’m ten miles away.  I have a sensitive tummy
Because every dirty person with four screaming kids got here first.
A bird just fell out of the sky dead right in front of me.  That’s probably a bad omen right?
The mom saw the ‘dress” on me and doesn’t know if she can let me leave the house in it.
I just bought 120 condoms.  This party is going to be excellent

Most obviously drunk text message I’ve sent:
Jen:  WhatEVER like you are butt buddies
John:  Already drunk I take it 
He totally called that one.  Some kind of best friend that can tell I’m drunk from only three text messages, huh?

I’m thirsty.  Shut up.

Good Stuff:  Not being alone every night.

Song Lyric of the Month:
Is it getting better, is it getting worse?
Was it ever worth it, was it just a curse?
Reggie and the Full Effect – Get Well Soon

Crappy Stuff:  Why am I waking up several nights a week with scratches on my body?  Seriously, what am I doing?

Do anything this month I’d never done before?  Put my girls on display for Rock Star Party.  Some people *cough*tre cool*cough* couldn’t even look me in the eye.

Birthdays? Mom, Mike, and Jenika

Favorite Random Picture:  The boys won’t let us play Asshole with these cards.  They actually prefer that we use the Disney Princess cards over these.

Weirdest night:  Remembering after one of the nights at Monroe’s that I was totally sniffing the boys.  What, I enjoy men that smell good!  Maybe that’s why I was making this “I have a secret” face, because I’m totally about to smell his neck.

Music:  Downloaded my first podcasts!!  Why did I not get into this earlier?  So far I’m consistently downloading Hi My Name is Mark and Jonathan Coulton.  Recommendations welcome.

Song of the Month: The zombie song

But here’s an FYI, you’re all gonna die screaming
All we wanna do is eat your brains
We’re not unreasonable, I mean no one’s gonna eat your eyes
Re Your Brains – Johnathan Coulton

And Angels and Airwaves.  Very excited about this band.  Almost popped a gasket when I found out they were going on tour with Taking Back Sunday.  This almost makes up for the TBS/Jimmy Eat World tour going to Tucson instead of Phoenix.

Where most of my money went:  Maybe not most, but a largeish amount of cash went to ring tones.  It got a little crazy.

Gratuitous boy pics:  How did I get blessed with two dork best friends?

Two years ago:  I went to D.C. for the first time and visited this guy:

Quotes of the Month:  “Excellent”  I don’t know where that word came from, but I say it all the time now.

Best Show:  Three way tie between Chris and Randy at Monroe’s, Digital Summer, and Taking Back Sunday.  Awesome month for shows.

Looking forward to:  Not being busy 70% of my free time.  Love ya guys, but a girl has got to sleep!

Saddest Day:

i have to pee lets move this along here.;’
Brigette

Last email from my girl at work before she became a stay at home mom.

Most Blasphemous Conversation:  Well that’s an easy one.

Violent Much?
John:  I can be at your place by 6:15, is that good?
Jen:  Yeah.  If your late you better be wearing a cup.
John:  Ha ha, balls of steel.

Hair Watch 2006 Status:  You can clearly see the damage I waged with the cutting.  But it’s the longest my hair has been in my adult life, and I think it looks goofy as hell most days.

Graph:  I had to save my reputation after last months graph.  I took out the family, because ewww.  But, this shows I would only kiss 13% of the people I know while sober, and that’s not half bad.

And here we see the first post that I have removed from my website. 

Should you be missing it, let’s just say I’m going to try and convince myself that I’m wrong.  Wish me luck.

I’m a diligent practitioner of giving people enough rope to hang themselves.  I’m not sure if this is a good, or a horribly bad, idea.

Sure, when I see these things coming, and I frequently do, I could step out and slip something into conversation to stop it.  Give the person an idea that I know something is amiss.  Allow them room to second guess the decision, to not break my heart.

But, I find it more gratifying to know without a shadow of a doubt that someone is a backstabber.  I never have to wonder if I was worried over nothing, it’s done.  Tie the knot yourself and then I give you the big drop kick out of my life.

There’s got to be some in between, right?  Some way to handle this where my heart isn’t pulverized in the end?  For now, this seems to be the only way my heart allows me to handle these situations.

Did you think I was kidding about that “no trust” thing?