The realization hit me like a truck:  I have to write today!  Ok, just breathe, this is totally manageable.  I can do this.  Yes, I’m 34 times crazier then when I did this last year, which was painful, but I can do this.  I won’t be the first person to spew crazy all over the internet.

Let’s get a few things clear though, mostly to the members of my awesome family that happen to read this site.  I need to write.  I need to be able to write openly, honestly and freely without worrying that I’m worrying you.  Yes, the writing lately has been a bit depressing.  That’s because I’m struggling.  It’s also a bit difficult to write interesting blog posts about happy things.  Add in the fact that the happiest things about my day were nephews in costume and a Kit Kat bar and we venture far into the land of BORING.  I am struggling.  I’ve admitted that to myself and it really is time for the people in my life (And all the strangers on the internet, hello!) to start accepting that.  I can’t censor myself here because it worries the people that love me.  Love me enough to know that I have to get through this and sometimes that means spilling my guts all over the interweb.  Just view it as an interesting personality quirk.

Ok, now that we’ve opened that can of worms let’s just brace ourselves for the month ahead.  I tried desperately to think of a theme for this month, basically an easy cheat to get 30 days of posts out of.  I thought of three half themes and I’ll probably dabble in each.  Some are happy and some are sad and some are just stories that I have no emotion for but feel like telling.  In no particular order of course.  It’s going to be a bumpy ride here the next 30 days, but I would be lying if I said I wasn’t looking forward to getting back behind this dashboard.